2003-10-20
I hate thinking up titles for these. Just read the damn entry
I manage to walk down the road today and get myself some Taco Bell. MMmmmm…bureeeeetooo….. Anyway, I’m not really familiar with the surroundings here yet outside of the campus and Winn Dixie, and going beyond that makes me very uncomfortable because I’m not used to the surroundings and all. I get very intimidated. It’s all very silly really. It’s like, I am not used to busy places like this like I used to be before we moved from Cincinnati when I was eleven. I am on a by-pass here and there is a pretty busy shopping center area and I don’t like going over there unless I am with someone else, and I ever really am. I get worried I will do something stupid and feel like an idiot because I don’t know the territory well. I was intimidated by a Taco Bell. Taco Bell! Because it was slightly different than the Taco Bell and the neighborhood I am used to. I was worried about silly things like going in the wrong door when there really isn’t even a wrong door. And just things like that. Just walking over there I was afraid I would look like I didn’t know where I was going and things like that. Is that making sense? I don’t know for sure how to explain it. It’s not even a big town. But the unfamiliar territory and faces make me feel pretty small and uncomfortable. I am always finding myself turning to walk out the wrong way, passing things up….basically wandering around like a lost dog. At home I know what I am doing because I know the routine. This is a different routine and it will take me forever to get used to it. But I guess I’ll manage. I did get something taken care of I’ve needed to do for a little bit of a while now, and made myself an appointment to get birth control pills, so that’s good. It’s right here on campus and I don’t have to have an exam done to get them. I was pretty nervous at the thought of someone I don’t know (or even if I did know them) taking a gander at my poocat and prodding it with cold metal. Unfortunately I have to wait until the 27th to have my appointment. But at least I’m getting it taken care of. I better go get my homework done and go to bed. It’s only ten and I’m super tired.
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