I hope the rest of the week goes by as fast as it has so far. Only until Friday. Then I hope it slows way down because that’s when I get to see the boyfriend. Its been two weeks since I got to see him. Even though I’ve went longer than that without him and it’s not too much different now than it was as far as our time together, it’s still…different. It feels like it’s been about a month and it makes things so sluggish. It’s different because even if I want to see him now, I can’t just call him and tell him to come over. I am only an hour and a half away from him though. It’s not too bad.

Another thing about the boyfriend, and guys here in general: I have not made one male friend here. I mean I’m sure I will, but I have always been the type to have way more guy friends than girls because they are so much easier to hang out with sometimes. Girls get prissy and petty sometimes and I can’t put up with that. Not all girls. But here I’m new. Very new, and I’m in college, and I am very defensive and a little freaked out when guys approach me. I get the stereotypical idea that they are thinking “Booty!” , haha. And that’s stupid, I know. I’m just afraid to talk to guys here. You hear too much about harassment on campus’s and I’m very paranoid about it. I think I am too worried that every guy that approaches me is going to start hitting on me or something, and that makes me feel really conceited too, and I don’t like that. I don’t think everyone wants me, it’s not like that. So how is it? Blah, it’s hard to explain. Well, #1, I don’t want any guys to flirt with me at all because besides the fact that I have a boyfriend, it makes me uncomfortable and I don’t know how to act. I don’t want to come off as a bitch, and I don’t want them to think I am flirting back. And #2. I am paranoid of the whole sexual harassment/rape deal because, well, it’s college and it happens a lot in colleges everywhere. I’ve heard about it happening here several times. So I have shied away from the male species here pretty strongly. I have only met maybe……two, maybe three guys I feel comfortable talking too. This whole thing is so annoying and stupid though. I’ll probably get over it, I’m sure. I’ve only been here for two weeks. I’m such a goober.