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2004-01-22
Glad it's over
The more I think about it, the more I realize how much I hated my senior year of high school, and am glad it’s over. I felt more shitty and lonely in high school than ant other time in my life thus far. Even more than when I first moved to Kentucky and almost everyone hated me because I was a “new girl”. It didn’t start off really bad, just progressively sucked more and more. I always sort of felt ignored, and I’m not one to crave attention ever. I always got weird feelings as if I was being talked about or made fun of…or something. I don’t know how to explain it. The only good thing about it was Boyfriend, and even that fucked up for a little while. I’m just glad it’s over. I’m glad not to have that bad feeling in my stomach anymore when I wake up and know I have to be there at school. At that school. In that town. I’m so glad to be in college now. Even though I haven’t made any seriously good friends yet that I hang out with on a regular basis, and even though I still get kind of lonely when I am stuck here on the weekends in my room, it doesn’t compare to how much I hated last year. A big Fuck you to the majority of 2003, and high school. The greatest thing that came out of it to me was Boyfriend. My Waylon. He’s my oxygen 100%. Things would really suck without him. I think I’ll send him an email later, let him know that.
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