ediblmercury.diaryland
2003-10-19
Self Loathing

Today my phone was left off the hook so when my mom and Barry called from the lobby it did not ring. I just came down to check my email and say a note in my mailbox from them saying they might stop back by on their way back down from Cincinnati. And I’ve been stuck in my room alone all weekend so now I’m even more depressed. Damnit, why’d I leave the phone off the hook?! I hate being alone, it sucks! It’s….lonely! And makes me depressed. But I don’t always want just any company ya know? And I really miss the boyfriend right now too. A lot. I have got to see if I can get out of working Saturdays so I don’t have to stay here almost every weekend. It is too depressing here alone. I really cant stand it.
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