I have a credit card. I think I did ok...ok, not that ok but I didn’t go on a damn shopping spree. I'm a little afraid of it. I haven't gotten my first bill yet either and I'm worried I'll be short. I work at the campus library which mainly consists of me staring into space on my ass and getting paid 5.40 to do it. I only get paid every two weeks and this first paycheck will only be for one, minus two hours because they messed up. So yeah, I hope I can pay my bill with the aid of grandma giving me $90. Of course I went to Wal-Mart with a friend because I needed black paper for a class. But is that all I bought? Yeah..right. I spent $30 on stuff I didn't really need like usual. Reason #792 why I love and admire my boyfriend so much; because he is way better with money than me. So from now on when I need to save for something I am having him hold my money. Good thing there is a 'minimum payment due' thing on some bills.

Speaking of Boyfriend, that reminds me. That last entry? The one where I oh so obviously leave out some details? Well, that was because there is one person I know personally in this world that reads this. (Hi Becca) And I didn't want them (or uh.. her) to know some things right now because I didn't want her to think I was a hypocrite and think less of me and blah blah blah. But she's good, and kinda caught it. So yeah. It was something like this:

Becca: Hey, I'm gonna ask you a question but you don't have to answer it if you don't want to ok?

Me: Uh..I'm scared, haha.

Becca: Did you and Waylon have sex?

Me: What makes you ask that?

Becca: Your diary

Me: Oh. *awkward silence*

Becca: Well, you don’t have to answer that if you don't want to.

Me: Well, if I said I didn't want to say, that would make it a little obvious wouldn't it?

Becca: So....

Me: Uh, yeah. I just didn't want you to know right now because I don't want you to think I'm a hypocrite or something.

Ok, that's enough of the 'instant message' looking shit. I'll just go on to tell you she doesn’t think less of me or anything. Why would she? Well anyone that knows me personally knows how I've always been. I don't drink/smoke/do drugs and all that stuff, and I've always said I wanted to hold out on sex 'till I was married for lots of different reasons. I am very hard headed on my personal life decisions too. Very VERY set in my ways...supposedly. But this wasn't some lusty in the moment thing though. I have been sort of thinking about it for a little while, and I just changed my mind about things. Not everything, but this imparticular. I think for a little while I have been thinking "I cant do this now after all this time of being so set against it. What would people think?" But who cares. It's my business anyway, my life. People are aloud to change their mind, it's part of life. And it's not like I’m gonna go around telling people, haha. Yeah, it's between me and him ya know? Damn, we've been together almost three years now. And I'm 19. I think that itself is pretty remarkable these days. So yeah. And he is 20. Even more remarkable for a guy to be a virgin at 20. I guess I'll shut up about this all now, heh heh. Glad to get an update out of the way.