I need to slowly gather boxes for my move to college in August. Family was down yesterday. My cousin, her husband, and there little boy. They were discussing all this and started talking about how homesick I will get and how much I will miss mom. They are soooo wrong about that. I wanted to tell them how much I will NOT miss my mom, but I didn't want to cause a big thing. But they really do not understand. I don't have the same relationship with my mom as most people do, I I know for a damn fact, I will not miss her. Not one damn bit. She is one of the biggest reasons I can not wait to get out of here. If they read my memoir they would know why. I'd never show them that though.

You try to say "Um, no. Not going to miss home and mom at all. Trust me." And they get all "Oh, we'll see about that." They really don't understand. Really. All I will miss is Boyfriend and friends. And maybe being able to poop in the privacy of a single bathroom.

But mom is really giving her hopes up thinking I am going to miss her. She is hoping I come crying to her within the first few months. I think a lot of moms do that, but not like mine. She has no idea how much she depends on me for things, and she thinks it's the other way around. I know I will be just fine on my own with the help of some friends. It's one of those things I am damn sure of, and I am very stubborn and set in my ways, so don't even try to tell me different. I will try to update regularly now. Things have been crazy with Tracy, and home stuff, etc. I have been out all night hanging out with Stephen and some other people until like, 4 in the morning.