Mom has been out wasting money today. I need things for college really bad but she doesn’t like spending money is it doesn’t benefit her, so she called grandma and told her she needed money for all these things I need, and she doesn’t. It’s such bullshit, I am so tired of it. And like usual, when we get the money grandma is sending (if we haven’t already) she will keep some of it for herself. If she hadn’t been buying a bunch of new overpriced furniture we don’t need and don’t have room for she might have some money. A couple months ago she bought a new entertainment stand for the television. She just bought a new one not more than a year ago. But she said she is tired of that one (after she painted it and made it look like shit ) and stuck it in her bedroom when there isn’t room for it to begin with. It takes maximum effort to walk through this tiny ass apartment. And when I am at college I’m sure she’ll cram pack even more shit in.

I’m in a crabby mood now. That’s great. Going off to college will be like taking one big shit that’s been sitting in my ass for 19 years.