But anyway, all that's not the point. The point is that I am just now getting a little nervous about it all. I am all wondering about how things will be tomorrow after everything that just happened with us Monday. It's like tomorrow will be a glimpse of how things are going to be now and if we are going to stay together. Please God, don't let me screw this one up. I am going to be so aware of ever move he makes.

I bought him a new pillow tonight when I went to get his mom something for Mother's Day. I hope it helps things on a little. Yeah, that sounds strange. I will explain: Boyfriend has two really old and flat pillows on his bed. They suck. One day I told him he needs new pillows and he agreed, so I jokingly but not so jokingly told him I would buy him new pillows. Every once in a while he will say to me "You never got me pillows." It's kind of a little joke between us, but I told him I really was going to get him new pillows so I did. Well, one, but it's big and so fluffy and comfortable. I want to sleep on it tonight. Just want to be nice and help things start off smooth, and pray they stay that way. Tomorrow will be a big sign of everything.