Things I am hoping for in college:

1: To outgrow my A - Breasts are the number one characterization and symbol of the female form, so why the fuck do I not have them? I'm not asking for big boobies. Those cause back problems and don't get along with gravity. I'd at least like some normal ones though, damnit. I don't just dislike my breasts because they are small. They just don't look nice period. I seen my friend Jessica's and she has the most perfect breasts I have ever seen in my life. And they are real. Not plastic or airbrushed. I would never get fake breasts, ever. Yeah, over the past few months my desire for breasts that make your blouse follow your curves and give you cleavage has grown to unsafe levels. It has given me this extreme love for nude female art that makes my boyfriend and older brother a little worried. But it's not sexual at all. I don't look at photographs of bare breasted woman and think "Boobies. Yum."

I think "God, I wish I had breasts like that." I've gone completely infatuated with it. If I can't have them, at least I can draw them, and that I shall.

2. More friends - I am not a people person. Mainly because I am misunderstood on a daily basis. I have little quarks that people always seem to take the wrong way, and I am hoping to get rid of them. I haven't paid as much attention to it as I should have before my senior year. It's like I've grown this pathetic want of acceptance among peers, and I've never felt like that in my life. Not to the point of not being myself, because I have never been like that. I am 100% for being yourself all the way. Just more conscience of my physical actions and such. It's like the first time in my life I have kind of felt like....the cheese, and in college I get to start over.

3. To grow artistically - Pretty self explanatory. The things I did in art my freshman year look so crappy to me now. I've been wondering how my things this year will look to me when I am a senior in high school.